week 4 lent reading, 2020

As we stay home and keep our distance, many of us will feel trapped, increasingly isolated. Some will experience anxiety and depression, and nearly all will get stir crazy. As you find a way to make it through, consider the thoughts of mystics, of desert fathers and mothers, of those who daily practice sitting before the Lord in contemplation. They offer us their experience of God through stillness, silence and solitude, and I invite you to join me in staying open to the following possibilities:

  • What if intentional stillness is the antidote to feeling stir crazy? Sit quietly, on purpose, and breathe. Listen to, and then let go of, your thoughts, your emotions, and the sensations of your physical body. If you feel the desperate urge to move, invite stillness rather than avoiding it.

  • What if solitude and silence are the antidotes to feeling isolated? Decide to have a period of silence: no podcasts, no radio or tv, perhaps even no music. Allow your mind to wander, and rediscover your own inner dialogue. You contain multitudes, and carry in you a sliver of God Almighty. Pay attention to yourself, and you might discover that you are far too magnificent, multifaceted and interesting to be boring.

  • Finally, as a contemplative thinker in 2020, I also have to urge us to keep open these possibilities: Moving outside, facetiming a friend, creating anything (music, breakfast, a drawing, or a poem), or doing something that will serve and care for other humans might also restore you in wonderful ways. This virus exhausts strained healthcare workers and endangers the lives of elderly folks and hourly wage earners. For many of us though, it gives the gift of time. There is room for you to practice all of these if you will stay open to the possibilities they offer.

Pay attention to yourself as you keep your distance; it is possible that increased distance from others might mean increased awareness of you.

Week 4  To Ponder:

“But how sobering, that I can bring forth out of my thought-world into the external world either that which leads to life, or that which produces death in other men…we must understand that the reality of communion with God, and loving God, must take place in the inward self.”                               -Francis Shaeffer

“Contemplative prayer deepens us in the knowledge that we are already free, that we have already found a place to dwell, that we already belong to God, even though everyone and everything around us keep suggesting the opposite.”  -Henri Nouwen

To Read:

Mar 18 Ps 103; 131

Mar 19 Isaiah 43:1-7

Mar 20 Ps 1:1-3; 23

Mar 21 Habb 3:17-19

Mar 22  Matthew 5:1-12

Mar 23 Ps 106:1-8

Mar 24 Eccles 3:1-8; Ps 13

Lent Readings, 2020

The presence of Lent in the church calendar—40 full days of preparation for Easter—reminds us in the Biblical record, God uses the number 40 as a measure of time to bring God’s children closer: to heighten their thirst, to remind them of God’s power and provision in their daily lives, to encourage and pour into them before a hard season ahead.  Many of us live as if life is linear, as if our only chance to find meaning or joy is to work hard until we achieve it. Developing an annual practice of Lent allows us to recognize that joy and meaning often come through cycles of stillness, silence and solitude. Intense effort is useful, but so are moments of waiting and of sacrifice.

Each Tuesday I will post readings for the week ahead. Every day there is a poetic scriptural reading, ending each week with the Beatitudes. This Lenten season I am reminded that if I want to prepare myself for Christ’s coming kingdom, I would do well spend 40 days marinating in the words Jesus used to describe it. We diminish the power of God when we try to protect and expand our own power and security instead of looking to God for significance and peace. In the past, I decided God’s Kingdom was made in my image, so that the hardest workers and the kindest, the most intentional people won. The Beatitudes remind us that God’s values are different. God promises to be present, generous and sustaining to those who have no power, to those near the margins, to those who align themselves with the overlooked and against self-interest alone. 

In the Catholic Church I visit on Ash Wednesday, the priest reminds us that Lent is experienced most fully in three ways:

1) We sacrifice something in order to remind ourselves of thirst, of hungering after God, or to disrupt patterns that diminish our flourishing in Christ.

2) We willfully use this experience of disruption to push us toward Christ, placing Jesus in the front of our minds, or at the top of our day.

3) We turn our eyes from ourselves and toward others as we intentionally live more generously toward those in need during Lent.

For these 40 days, I pray you would be mindful of these 3 practices, and maybe use them to orient yourself toward God. Allow yourself to recognize the abundance in your life, and to lean in to the lean places. In my own experience of God, there is a connecting holiness—an embodied solidarity—that comes when I decide to stay present in my pain instead of escaping. The Torah and the Bible speak of a God who is willing to wrestle with us, to cry with us, to listen to our lament. These Lenten readings teach us that God is just as present when I cry as God is when I refuse to let the tears come because I have Jedi mind-tricked my spirit into only hoping for, or seeing, the good. This Lent, create moments of stillness so you can notice your own joy and heartbreak. Cry. Or don’t. But don’t believe the lie that crying is unfaithful.

The one place I want to be when I am present in my pain is near God. Given the chance to introduce himself, God says, “I am.” That’s my best name. I am the present one. The always here one. The never past or future tense one. The ongoing in the moment one. To be near God is to be awake for this life, for these current moments: joyful and heartbreaking and everything in between. Allow yourself to think about people who live with very little, and know that they often hunger for and understand God in ways hard for some to understand. May these readings be an invitation into presence, with yourself, with others, with the God of “I Am.”

Find stillness, and believe the Gospel.

To Ponder:

“God is that way with us, He wants to hold us still with Him in silence…They cannot all be brilliant or rich of beautiful. They cannot all even dream beautiful dreams like God gives some of us. They cannot all enjoy music. Their hearts do not all burn with love. But everybody can learn to hold God…We shall not become like Christ until we give Him more time.”                                                    -Brother Lawrence

“Maybe you search for understanding, but find only one thing for sure, which is that truth comes in small moments and visions, not galaxies and canyons; not the crash of ocean waves and cymbals. Most traditions teach that truth is in these small holy moments.”                                          -Anne Lamott

To Read:

Feb 26 Matthew 5:1-12

Feb 27 Proverbs 2:1-15

Feb 28 Ps 94:12-22

Feb 29 Micah 6:6-8

Mar 1 Matthew 5:1-12

Mar 2 Ps 90:12-17; 91:1-2

Mar 3 Ps 95:1-8

the lessons of Fall

In Tennessee, the perpetual summer has finally given way to crisp fall mornings, days with a darkened hue, and leaves whose colors best Crayola. It is glorious. The cool air invites deep inhales, energizing us to get through each day. Part of the gift of Autumn is simply that it signals a change. In late spring, we welcome long hot days; in late summer, we beg for cool darkness. Too much of a good thing apparently is a thing.

Fall is my favorite season because I feel most alive and most grounded when I am outside. Put me near mountain water or the woods, and I become a contented optimist. Research has long proven that movement, activity, and immersion in nature are significantly linked to improved mental and physical functioning. Beyond the magical physiology that proves this to be true, one of the reasons outdoor activity lifts our gaze to the good is that it requires us to stop gazing at screens. Although I admit I have tried before, it is very difficult to hike a rooty trail with one’s eyes on a screen. Ill advised, indeed.  

The pervasive influence of screens, like most innovations, has transformed the way we function for good and for bad. We are more productive, more convenienced, more connected to the far reaches of the globe. We are also more distracted, more overwhelmed, and less connected to those across the table from us. Our phones allow us to divide our attention, to prioritize the unimportant as urgent, and to make subtle, tiny choices all day that fracture our souls. Our teenagers’ circadian rhythms are thrown off as their faces are illuminated by screens late into the night, and our work life balance is perpetually off as we “just finish this real quick” while those we love wait for our attention.

While the ubiquity of phones steal our silence, our solitude, and our stillness from us, the presence of social media threatens our authentic understandings of what we value. An experience becomes valuable because we can film it, post it, and quantify its value through likes. A memory becomes forgettable if we don’t capture a picture or phrase that catches the love of our followers. Hoping to offer a snapshot of our lives in an effort to stay authentically connected, we have damaged our ability to claim our own value system, and instead surrender our agency and authenticity to the mob’s clicking proclivities.

How might we reclaim our sense of self, our agency, our time, our awareness of those around us (and the crucial context that brings)? Fall has brought us answers, so look to the leaves and learn. The lessons here are simple:

First, put your phone down and go outside. Spend an hour moving outdoors, undistracted by the brilliant connections offered through your phone.

This sounds simple, but we know it isn’t. It is hard to walk away from our phone, as holding it makes us feel secure and invulnerable. We cannot be overcome if we have access to a phone. Even more, it is hard to do a thing without being distracted. We have trained our brains, our hands, our relational selves and our intellect to be distracted every few minutes. Going outside when the world is showing off its most glorious self lifts our gaze away from self, away from cheap distractions, and away from others intent on dictating what we find valuable. The woods remind us that life is mysterious, that our perspective is inherently limited, and that time can move slowly and quickly, in a straight line or in circles. These observations are powerful in their ability to impact the rhythms of life that guide us.

Whether you have access to a state park or a small patch of green space, time in it is valuable. (If your daily path does not contain grass, try this: Change your perspective by lying down and looking up under or near a tree. Watch as your urban landscape turns into an expansive sky littered with dangling leaves. Transformation.)

Secondly, Fall teaches us to yield. The vibrant colors, the diminishing light and the dropping temperatures are gorgeous reminders that the world shuts down every winter. No created thing was made to live large forever; we must rest, even die. We are each made to yield, to surrender, to pause. The world presents a stunning tableau every Fall to remind us, even invite us, to recognize our need for rest. For silence, solitude and stillness.

Autumn beckons us to yield, to slow and let others pass. Fall reminds us that the act of surrender can be a gorgeous thing to behold, that we might do well to follow the lead of the world that lifts our gaze and heightens our hope for the crisp joy a day might bring. The current that carries most of us demands constant attention, distracted engagement, and complete—if divided—availability. We know this pace to be unsustainable, and yet we fail to hold on to alternative rhythms. The growth and beauty of spring only comes because of the devastating stillness of winter. Is it possible that this truth could be manifest in our own lives as well? If we commit to slowness, to stillness, to surrender, might we also find a season of deep restoration that leads to transformed growth?

As the world begins its dazzling death, I humbly commit to bear witness often, and to follow its lead by yielding to a slower pace, a surrendered presence, and a silent practice of stillness as I wait for renewal to come. Go outside, and let the natural world teach you that striving is not the only path forward. The earth teaches us another way, if we will pause and take note.